Quicksand.

In quicksand the less you move the slower you sink ,but the faster you move the faster you sink. I feel like I'm in quicksand now. The more I do the faster I sink the less I do nothing happens ,yet I'm still in the sand still sinking. The inevitable end, there are branches too reach out too and pull me out. Why don't I take them?



Because there are thorns ,but I still want the rose to pull me out. I'm still willing to get hurt, as long as have the rose, even if I'm still stuck in the quicksand.

jlkhhhjhjji

the heck is wrong with you?

i'm happy i'm getting away from this place. geez.

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mmmm... it's twelve eighteen? by the time I get done writing this it would probably be eh, i don't want to do the math. i don't apologize for the above ,but i do wish i worded it better, i'm not overeacting i think i'm undereacting there's nothing i can do and i think i accept that. been my whole philosophy for the past months can't really change it now. so mineaswell embrace it.

"You gonna' drink?"

Ok.Ok.Ok. So I drank a little.

If God turned water into wine and drank wine at the last supper as a representation of his blood than I don't consider alcohol itself "evil". Of course God created both good and evil and it's how we use wine or alcohol. I guess vodka whatever is made by man using the materials which God created. But it's up to us how we use what he created. Just try and get what I'm saying.

I know my limits. Sorry, I just know someone is going to say something about this.

OHHHH NINE.

YESSSSSS!

It's summer time. I'm relieved, I'm excited I'm alot of things.

thankyouGod. I was so stressed the past two weeks. Beyond stressed.

I probably sprouted grey hairs.  

It's amazing how fast this summer come and how fast the years have gone. I can't believe I'm a junior. Just seeing how much people have changed I've changed and I'm sure we're going to keep changing. For the good or the bad, it's still a "Good Life".

We'll see what summer brings. 

oh really now.

um, wow.

i find it amazing how you can blow a small thing up.

i'm glad i didn't come.

i wonder what else you think of me, or thought of me.

why do i even bother? 

further thoughts:

i should be studying for algebra but i sort of see it as pointless

i'm going to for sure sleep at 2 because that seems to work out.

posting this seems even more pointless.

like really what do you want me to fucking do?

lie to you?

or would you rather me not say anything?

because the more honest i get the more ehhhhh.

honesty killed the cat. 

"Quit Playing Games With MY Heart"

^Does anyone remember that song? I miss those 90's cheesy love songs. 

Starting at 10:30 I finished:

-The whole bio project by myself why? because i'm an idiot.

-Essay for English

-The DNA lab which I redid.

All I need to do is study for the Spanish final which I just realized is probably on Tuesday considering Jp's is tuesday if not, than well, i'm screwed.